heyy!

2007-12-31T15:50:00.000+08:00

Its the last day of 2007, and a year has passed by.

Cheesy I know.

Never understood the rationale behind people talking about their new year's resolution, because at least for me, either I will never do bother to keep them, or I will forget that I actually have set targets for the new year.

Yada.

As i was surfing the net just now, namely facebook * sheepish grin*, I chanced upon Ms Cheng's profile.

She's getting married, no, make that she got married, and she's moving to holland, with her husband, of course.

It seemed like yesterday when she walked into our class, seemed like yesterday when she gave us her first lecture, and called my name during lecture.

And yet, if u do the math, its been 4 years.

4 years since we started our jc lives.

I never thought that I would miss my jc life, esp with my longer-than-usual stay in school.

But the fact is I do.

I miss the crap that we have in class,

the stoning sessions,

the consultations,

Miss Kon's anger with us if we cant contribute,

Mr Lim's constant jokes

and even Mr Gay.

And all of a sudden,

with year 2008 pressing near,

reality starts setting in.

We are all no longer young,

turning 21,

with no excuses for our stupid, silly behaviour.

We term ppl who are 16, 17 xiao mei meis and xiao di dis,

and yet,

it wasnt really that long ago when we were all like that.

And with the sudden realization,

I realise,

that I dont really know what I want out of my life.

I'm in school because I need a degree,

studying a course that I have no idea where it would bring me,

aiming just to survive year after year, and to graduate,

maybe get married and try to be satisfied with this life of mine.

I like to stay in my own comfort zone, my safe little haven.

Yet, as cheesy and cliche as it may seem,

perhaps the only permanent thing in our lives is change,

just like how ms cheng is leaving,

just like how we always manage to adapt when we change schools,

just like how we will eventually get used to the fact that some people leave us.

As childish as I may sound,

I wish that things will stay the same,

and maybe its just me,

I'm feeling melancholic.

2007-11-25T19:20:00.000+08:00

My first entry after my exams ended.

Somehow,I seem to have lost track of time,

I dont even know what date it is anymore.

Havent done anything much,

been sleeping,

sleeping

and sleeping.

And I'm still at harry potter book 1 after um near to 5 days.

Yes huiting go ahead and laugh,

though you will not be in Sg to read this.

Went Plaza Sing yest,

which kinda reminds me,

I was at PS, but i didnt walk out 2 see the lightings.

AGAIN.

Yest was like my 3rd time in town for the week and I still havent gotten a glimpse of how the lightings look like.

Watched Stardust,

not as bad as i imagined it to be,

much much much better than beowulf which I caught with my tut group.

I think Beowulf is a narcissist.

After he slays a monster,

he shouts

" I AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMM BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWUUUUUUUUUUULFFFFFFFFFFFFFF"

in that super garang position.

Like wth.

and why did grendel become the king's son

and since when did the dragon become beowulf's son.

and why didnt the grendel's mom die?

BAH

Anyway,

went cafe cartel for lunch,

and by golly *haha* i saw alot of people.

Kintuan, Weekim, Kuan Rei,

Yeoyang

and last but not least

MR LIM

in the same restaurant la.

So coincidental,

and his son is super cute.

I want a baby too.

If only I was an amoeba,

then can self reproduce.

=(

And..

my condolences to the 5 singaporeans who drowned in cambodia.

2007-11-19T09:20:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired of being here,

supressed by all my childish fears.

2007-11-16T15:59:00.000+08:00

3 papers down, 1 more to go.

I know I know,

I really ought to feel happy,

but

I dont know why I'm not.

The papers were fine, with the exception of econs, hoping tad they will moderate, since majority didnt know hw to do the first question.

I was happy

until reality started to sink in,

and I have tons of assignments sitting in the HSS office, waiting to be collected.

Cowardice I guess.

Absolutely demoralizing that I seem to be the only person who isnt performing as well,

at least in my own clique?

I dont know,

Sometimes it just feels that I already have tried my best,

but i am still getting Bs.

And it feels that people who dont try as hard,

who dont work as hard

are getting the As.

Call it talent,

perhaps they realli are good in it.

Maybe Im just not cut for this course?

It always happens,

my efforts are not reflected in my grades.

I think,

I'm just not smart enough.

2007-11-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

I am so screwed.

SO SCREWED SO SCREWED SO SCREWED

THAT I AM GOING CRAZY.

Spent so much time doing econs, and Im nt even done with it, which is making me panic.

And so i try 2 save time by scanning through,

which makes me insecure.

Either way Im screwed, whether or not I try to read in detail.

ARGH

And because I have been reading so much on econs,

I havent even done my 102 AT ALL,

which is like bad,

cos its on fri, and my papers on wed end at 730PM, which means i will reach home at god noes wad time.

WHY DO I NOT OWN A PLANE?

WHYWHYWHY.

I wish i could teleport home.

I think

maybe i should juz aim to graduate rite?

with or w/o honours,

or 2nd lower and 3rd class.

DUNNO LA.

I am so DEAD.

MAY WED NEVER COME.

NEVER NEVER NEVERRRRRRRRRRRRR

2007-11-06T21:03:00.000+08:00

Me wants to go shopping.

Dropped by at tm today, so many new shops!

Theres this new shop at CS selling really pretty and cheap dresses.

And most importantly...

they are long enough!

Heh

Itching to buy it now....

Just realised that exams are exactly a week away,

havent even studied can.

Still rushing out my portfolio,

think i will crap.

BAH

suddenly I find TM so interesting...

and oh oh oh

M)phosis is setting up a new branch at tampines.

MUAHAHAHAHHAHA

I feel so blessed.

I know I know..

I will try not to go shopping before my exams end.

will TRY.

So many things 2 do after exams...

this is bad

I havent even started studying,

and Im thinking what I can do after this.

Oh tried peppermint mocha frap today.

NICE

but I like green tea latte more.

Ok study study

-toodles-

2007-10-28T20:26:00.000+08:00

My apologies

to my um 3 readers,

that my blog is always angsty, depressed and emotional.

And yes,

I am going to blog abt sch work again.

ARGH

I have no idea hw to start the essay

because i dont understand

the STUPID FILM

and the STUPID QN

and although my tutor did try to explain the quote to us

but but but

i think its wrong

BAH

I dont really trust him la

since all he does is to talk abt porn

SADDED

BAHHHH

-crashes my head against the wall-

believe it or not

this is the first time in my entire 20 years of my life

tad i haf ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA

wad the qn is talking about

ARGH.

anyways

went to mph bookfair yesterday.

and yes, im guilty of spending money again,

when I have tons of books untouched

and not to mention my extremely expensive

NORTON ANTHOLOGY.

bah

i am an angsty girl now.

2007-10-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

Great

Fanatastic

Now my optical mouse is spoilt

meaning

I have to spent money money money!

Grr

Ok other than the fact tad i can get a nicer one,

I dont realli see any cause for me to celebrate over the death of my mouse.

Maybe miss meow ate it.

Bah

Alrights it wasnt meant to be funny.

Econs test was okay but i know i kinda flunked it.

So dui can.

I studied so hard

and when i saw the questions, i knew i read it somewhere

but nevertheless

i juz couldnt remember

BAH BAH BAH

and to top this up

I have an allergy

from my pimple cream

Pathetic

and highly ironic

I am just depressed now.

I actually have chocolate waitin for me on my desk,

enticing me,

but i cant eat it

cos i have a HUMONGOUS ZIT

and a freaking allergy

ARGH

I juz want this sem to end,

like now

2007-10-19T18:57:00.000+08:00

I just realised how much of an arts person I am,

I know NUTS about global warming,

and the wiki font and format is driving me nuts.

Been having headache and getting sleepless nites,

I would like to attribute it to the confused climate of late,

but i think its the stress thats driving me nuts.

My apologies to the people around me.

Was in a really bad mood when i came hm,

and nt to mention hungry.

Ate a slice of strawberry shortcake,

which,

of course

was

VERY NICE.

made me happy for a while

and now im depressed again.

Am having chicken curry from bedok central

I hope tad makes me happy.

ok I haf to get back to my 101 essay already

QUIZ on monday

must study must study

2007-10-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

Many many things to do.

lemme juz rant and rave over here.

Things due next wk (10/22)
- mon :mcq test which i haf yet to study for
-wed: 104 essay that I havent started on as well
-fri: 101 essay that Im trying to rush now
AND
on top of all these

I still haf many many readings, and haf yet to watch another movie which is my assignment

WHY LIDAT

I barely touched 102 readings

I am so going to die

BAH

Things due next next wk ( 10/29)
- HL101 essay: which i cant start because I have yet to watch the movie

ARGH

Listening to he bin gong yuan now. Its been so long since Ive heard this song

Ok tad was totally random

gotta rushhh

toodles

2007-10-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

Been feeling unwell lately,

think its the weather.

Feeling kind of nauseous, dont know why though,

think its the bread that I just had barely an hour ago,

combined with a splitting headache,

I hope I fall sick soon.

At least it sounds like a much better choice as compared to the frequent torture.

Assignments due next next wk

craft of writing assignment 3
and econs mcq test

the week after next
- 101 essay- waitin for godot ( still reading the ridiculous play)
- 104 essay

-sidetracks-

I bot the grey mango jeans

So grateful to my mom

=)

and

I guess

that doing the right thing may be the best for us afterall.

2007-10-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

Gotta Go My Own Way

Gabriella
I gotta say what's in my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..
I've go to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own away
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
Gotta Go My Own Way Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com
you'll be ok..
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own away

Troy
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

Gabriella
What about trust?

Troy
you know I never wanted to trust you

Gabriella
and what about me?

Troy
What am I supposed to do?

Gabriella
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

Troy
I'll miss you

Gabriella
so
I've got to move on and be who I am

Troy
Why do you have to go?

Gabriella
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

Troy:
I'm trying to understand

Gabriella
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now

Troy
I want you to stay

Gabriella
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

Troy
What about us?

Gabriella
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

Troy
I'm trying to understand

Gabriella
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own away
I gotta go my own away
I gotta go my own away

Excuse me for the spelling errors, lazy to edit, ripped it off from some website

Been a long time since I've posted lyrics,

If u cant see the significance of its presence

its time to do ur prac crit.

Nwae, I had a pretty fast journey hoime from ntu.

I really love 179A, especially empty ones tad go really really fast and take u far far away from the school,

I ended school at 620 pm, ended 10 mins earli, walked to CanA , there were 2 179As, EMPTY ones, pretty rare for a monday evening ( the last time i took it was packed to the max, ended up standing near the bus driver, which is besides the pt)

took 179A, boarded the train at 650?reached tamp at 745, walked hm and reached hm at 8!

everything in 1 hr 40 mins

fantastic

me be liking the new bus service

and right now its time

for me to transform into a essay writing machine

-toodles-

2007-10-07T19:25:00.000+08:00

Mablerine is sick and tired

of writing essays

and doing research

and searching the net for articles

and searching the online thesaurus for synonyms.

Mablerine is not an essay churning machine ok?

=(

2 down, 2 more to go

This is just sheer madness,

and not to mention utter torture.

cluttered sentence,

uncluttered sentence

argh wadever,

im rambling,

and im very worried for my grades.

whoever said A levels were ur hardest hurdle?

tad person must be a liar.

2007-10-07T12:23:00.000+08:00

They say that blogging helps to improve one's style of writing,

something that Im desperate to work on.

Realised that Ive been writing in a very simple manner,

which is bad compared to people in my course

who can write really well.

I bet they can even come up with poems if they are asked to.

GRR

Many many assignments

and me wants to eat ajisen.

Hey that rhymed!

Me be not liking school.

okkkkkkkkk

shall go do my work.

I know this is really boring,

i understand,

cos i myself feel bored with this blog as well

Ah wells

too bad

-exeunt-

2007-10-01T08:32:00.000+08:00

There has been an influx of chinese nationals in my neighbourhood over the past few years.

Apparently many residents rented their apartments out, making full use of this period of housing boom.

It isnt fair to say that I have something against them,

but I saw something outrageous today.

I guess almost every neighbourhood will receive the big garbage bag from their respective town councils for recycling, and what we have to do is to leave our used newspapers and etc at the doorstep of OUR HOUSE.

I went down exceptionally early this morning to buy my usual copy of the Straits Times.

At the lift landing, I saw this particular lady, whom i recognize as somebody frm my block, obviously, one of my not so new neighbours.

She was carrying a stack of crumpled newspapers, newspapers that look like they have been dug out of the rubbish bin.

Alright, never mind about that.

As long as she goes about her style of living without bringing disturbance to others.

And when I reached my own storey, I saw her acting suspiciously at the staircase near my neighbour's house, who apparently left a large stack of newspapers at their door step.

She must have hated me because I glared at her hoping that she would get the hint, that she is STEALING.

She did not.

I closed the door behind me, and continued to keep a watch for her, through the peep hole.

True enough, she waited for approximately 5 mins, and then she crept stealthily, taking the first bag, waiting for any reaction, and took the rest, and fled.

Although the stuff that she's taking may not be of extreme value and importance, but yet this obviously reflects very much on their morals.

I hope I'm not being too much of a nationalist, but their actions do not allow us Singaporeans to get along with them

So much of social cohesion.

I am simply outraged and disgusted at their behaviour.

2007-08-29T19:21:00.000+08:00

Its been so long since I came here,
Almost typed the wrong web add.

Weird aint it,
never felt like blogging in the recent months,
and yet,
when I'm feeling down,
this is the first outlet that I can actually think of to vent my frustration.

I have no idea
why I'm typing in stanzas.
Too much of school,
I think.

I have no idea how to solve this,
I cant see the future
I cant see anything,
maybe its just me,
overwhelmed and blinded by my own jealousy.
Is it?
Or is it not?

Is it my problem?
Or is it yours?

I'm tired
sometimes I really dislike my indecisiveness.
Maybe I should just let it go,
like what should have happened 3 yrs ago.
I'm sorry that I cant accept it,
be it whether or not
there is smth going on.

and since there is no way out
and no negotiation on my part.
perhaps its time to really let go.

I need a hug

2007-07-20T16:02:00.000+08:00

Alrights, been a long time since I last blogged.

I'm kinda curious to know who will still check this webby regularly for updates.

Nth much though, sch is starting in 2 wks time.

Not excited, I kinda enjoy my slack life currently.

Reading da vinci code currently, it makes me want to travel to france.

Bah

kinda lost my 'flair' (?) for writing?

feels weird to type here.

anyway, my bro tried to preorder harry potter bk 7

and guess wad?

the adults cover is sold out

ARGH

i tink i will go raid the book stores in town on sun.

hahahaha... alrights shall stop here

-exuent-

2007-06-12T15:14:00.001+08:00

Alrights as tagged by ht, I will TRY to complete the survey. Not like anybody's reading anyway.

Four jobs I've had in my life:
1.Lego fair
2.Relief Teaching
3.discovery
4.no more

Four movies I can watch over and over again:
1.dreamgirls -ack to say the truth im a lil sick of it already, but i still like the songs-
2.geisha?
3.honestly i cant think of anything else

Four places I've been on vacation:
1.USA
2.Hong Kong
3.Phuket ( not really meant to be counted in since it was in the cruise package but hey, me dont go overseas often kayz)
4.M'sia
-china!

Four of my favourite dishes:
1. Tempura
2. chippy
3. mummy's cookings
4. and whatever that im in the mood for. ha

Four places I would like to visit:
In the near near future...probably...
1. Hongkong *again*
2. Venice
3. Egypt
4. and Europe?

P.S: Im getting bored over here

Four most overused words:
1. argh
2. hahaa
3. grrrrr
4. hmm

Four gadgets that I have:
1. handphone
2. my computer? heh
3. ipod nano? hehh
4. my LELIO! *radio in actual fact*

Four TV shows I love to watch:
1. hk dramas
2. more hk dramas
3. more and more hk dramas
4. HK DRAMAS

Aye, im done,

and whatever inspiration that I had to blog about my not so fufilling week after i stopped working is gone

till the next entry

-toodles-

2007-05-27T12:06:00.001+08:00

Haha, as I was trying very hard to edit all the html stuff, I felt oddly out of touch from the blog-o-sphere.

Afterall, its been *counts fingers* say half a year since i last blogged and since I deleted the previous one.

Alrights alrights, shall think of a better blog add when I am in the mood to.

Somehow I feel that I kinda forgot the manner in which I used to blog

and not to mention that I feel rather silly doing all these over again, afterall i started blogging when i was still in my secondary school days, and yet here I am back again, trying to fix the html codes that I can hardly comprehend all over again.

Shall stop here for now, maybe I will try to blog one of these few days, maybe.