Its the last day of 2007, and a year has passed by.

Cheesy I know.

Never understood the rationale behind people talking about their new year's resolution, because at least for me, either I will never do bother to keep them, or I will forget that I actually have set targets for the new year.

Yada.


As i was surfing the net just now, namely facebook * sheepish grin*, I chanced upon Ms Cheng's profile.

She's getting married, no, make that she got married, and she's moving to holland, with her husband, of course.

It seemed like yesterday when she walked into our class, seemed like yesterday when she gave us her first lecture, and called my name during lecture.

And yet, if u do the math, its been 4 years.

4 years since we started our jc lives.

I never thought that I would miss my jc life, esp with my longer-than-usual stay in school.

But the fact is I do.

I miss the crap that we have in class,

the stoning sessions,

the consultations,

Miss Kon's anger with us if we cant contribute,

Mr Lim's constant jokes

and even Mr Gay.

And all of a sudden,

with year 2008 pressing near,

reality starts setting in.

We are all no longer young,

turning 21,

with no excuses for our stupid, silly behaviour.

We term ppl who are 16, 17 xiao mei meis and xiao di dis,

and yet,

it wasnt really that long ago when we were all like that.

And with the sudden realization,

I realise,

that I dont really know what I want out of my life.

I'm in school because I need a degree,

studying a course that I have no idea where it would bring me,

aiming just to survive year after year, and to graduate,

maybe get married and try to be satisfied with this life of mine.

I like to stay in my own comfort zone, my safe little haven.

Yet, as cheesy and cliche as it may seem,

perhaps the only permanent thing in our lives is change,

just like how ms cheng is leaving,

just like how we always manage to adapt when we change schools,

just like how we will eventually get used to the fact that some people leave us.





As childish as I may sound,

I wish that things will stay the same,

and maybe its just me,

I'm feeling melancholic.